http://www.developandgrow.com/lifecoach/blog/are-you-your-own-biggest-obstacle-to-positive-change/ Unlock your potential to fulfill your dreams and enjoy an extraordinary life Tue, 06 Jan 2009 03:41:15 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.7 hourly 1 http://www.developandgrow.com/lifecoach/blog/are-you-your-own-biggest-obstacle-to-positive-change/comment-page-1/#comment-4758 Pat Thu, 06 Nov 2008 02:46:20 +0000 http://www.developandgrow.com/lifecoach/?p=95#comment-4758 I don't feel like I am in control of my life, because I have vowed to help my son reach independence before I chase after my dreams. My son is physically disabled (sort of like Christopher Reaves). He is highly intelligent, likable, and a great writer. For him to be independent requires 24/7 professional care. That doesn't come cheap, so until he can afford it, I will be the one to cover hours we can't afford to hire someone else to work. Did I have to make this choice? Noone said I had to. But I love my son, and I see his potential. He will change the world! To leave him before he is ready would be harsh and unfair. He knows how I feel, and he loves me for it. He is trying to "pay his own way" as quickly as he can by earning money on internet jobs. For now, we are a team, so we have to work together. But it saddens me to continue, because my youth is gone and I fear I will not have time left to accomplish my dreams. For now, he and I are accomplishing all that we can towards our dreams together. But we are vastly different with different dreams. I know the day will come when he won't need me so much, but I've waited a very long time. Courage, patience, and love come at a cost. As much as I feel out of control of my life, at the same time, I couldn't-wouldn't choose to do it differently. I don’t feel like I am in control of my life, because I have vowed to help my son reach independence before I chase after my dreams. My son is physically disabled (sort of like Christopher Reaves). He is highly intelligent, likable, and a great writer. For him to be independent requires 24/7 professional care. That doesn’t come cheap, so until he can afford it, I will be the one to cover hours we can’t afford to hire someone else to work. Did I have to make this choice? Noone said I had to. But I love my son, and I see his potential. He will change the world! To leave him before he is ready would be harsh and unfair. He knows how I feel, and he loves me for it. He is trying to “pay his own way” as quickly as he can by earning money on internet jobs. For now, we are a team, so we have to work together. But it saddens me to continue, because my youth is gone and I fear I will not have time left to accomplish my dreams. For now, he and I are accomplishing all that we can towards our dreams together. But we are vastly different with different dreams. I know the day will come when he won’t need me so much, but I’ve waited a very long time. Courage, patience, and love come at a cost. As much as I feel out of control of my life, at the same time, I couldn’t-wouldn’t choose to do it differently.

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